Conversations w/Mom: Nature of Evil
Sep. 6th, 2004 08:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
-My mother (the Episcopalian priest) and I got to talking about evil. She has had parishioners with lives full of abuse, that manifested itself in ways both spiritual and demonstrably physical, and which also perpetuated itself physically, spiritually, and demonstrably in their offspring. She said:
Mom: It makes you feel like these things are connected, y'know? Like sexual abuse causes medical problems, which in turn caused a son to be born missing the necessary empathy for others.
Jon: Like the damage, or the evil, was a physical, contagious -- uh, transmissible? -- thing.
Mom: Right. We can have a good person, but the mark left on by the abuse somehow ended up causing genuine, diagnosable medical conditions. It feels like more than just genetics, or familial cycles of abuse.
Jon: Almost enough to make you believe in evil as something real.
Mom: Excuse me? [she gives me an amused look] Evil is real.
Jon: I mean . . . [I wave my hands helplessly] I mean as something more than "People do bad things."
Mom: Yes . . .
Jon: Look, there's a spectrum, from "People do bad things," to "Satan is an actual being." I don't think you believe the latter.
Mom: [looks thoughtful] I believe in Satan as a symbol . . .
Jon: Right, but you don't think he's a person, with personality and such.
Mom: [more thoughful] No . . . But if Satan doesn't have a personality, does God?
Jon: This is what I'm asking, if you believe in that as a necessary duality.
Mom: [more thoughtful] Not as such. But I believe in evil as a real thing, and as a way for people to talk about their problems. Like in Lord of the Rings, where evil is a presence.
Jon: And where you can end up tainted by it, while still being good. Or like wossname, Swimming to Cambodia guy, committed suicide recently (Edit: Spalding Gray), who believed in an invisible cloud of evil, circling the Earth, and landing at random spots, like Cambodia, where it made Pol Pot kill everyone with glasses. Like at any moment we could be touched by it, and not know why.
(Now, to cheer up, I'm going to watch the last half-hour of Hellboy again, in which a Hell-born demon kills a man who just wants to give the Earth a fresh start, but it still counts as good triumphing over evil.)
Mom: It makes you feel like these things are connected, y'know? Like sexual abuse causes medical problems, which in turn caused a son to be born missing the necessary empathy for others.
Jon: Like the damage, or the evil, was a physical, contagious -- uh, transmissible? -- thing.
Mom: Right. We can have a good person, but the mark left on by the abuse somehow ended up causing genuine, diagnosable medical conditions. It feels like more than just genetics, or familial cycles of abuse.
Jon: Almost enough to make you believe in evil as something real.
Mom: Excuse me? [she gives me an amused look] Evil is real.
Jon: I mean . . . [I wave my hands helplessly] I mean as something more than "People do bad things."
Mom: Yes . . .
Jon: Look, there's a spectrum, from "People do bad things," to "Satan is an actual being." I don't think you believe the latter.
Mom: [looks thoughtful] I believe in Satan as a symbol . . .
Jon: Right, but you don't think he's a person, with personality and such.
Mom: [more thoughful] No . . . But if Satan doesn't have a personality, does God?
Jon: This is what I'm asking, if you believe in that as a necessary duality.
Mom: [more thoughtful] Not as such. But I believe in evil as a real thing, and as a way for people to talk about their problems. Like in Lord of the Rings, where evil is a presence.
Jon: And where you can end up tainted by it, while still being good. Or like wossname, Swimming to Cambodia guy, committed suicide recently (Edit: Spalding Gray), who believed in an invisible cloud of evil, circling the Earth, and landing at random spots, like Cambodia, where it made Pol Pot kill everyone with glasses. Like at any moment we could be touched by it, and not know why.
(Now, to cheer up, I'm going to watch the last half-hour of Hellboy again, in which a Hell-born demon kills a man who just wants to give the Earth a fresh start, but it still counts as good triumphing over evil.)
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Date: 2004-09-06 06:59 pm (UTC)And in the real world, there are often a great many evils that must be done - and the only question is: how much evil must be done to accomplish something good?
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Date: 2004-09-06 07:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-07 07:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-06 08:44 pm (UTC)Theory: there are a limited number of souls. And too many people.
What this explains are soulless bastards who do things like rape children or eat humans; it explains how depression is rising ("I feel stretched thin, like butter scraped over too much bread"); and it explains the occasional odd chill of 'sense malevolence' that some people experience when certain other people enter a room. Also explains how glut of populatini begats war begats massive deaths begats sense of all being welll again (thin the population, there's more souls to go around). Piggy backs nicely off the theory that only a limited number of people will gain entrance into Heaven on Judgement Day; you got a soul, you get in. No soul; no entrance.
Ok, so it's half baked theory at best. But hey, add it to the list of unfathomables, like infinite largeness and infinet smallness. -H...
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Date: 2004-09-07 09:13 am (UTC)Re: Taking stuff off the Internet
Date: 2004-09-07 07:03 pm (UTC)Re: Taking stuff off the Internet
Date: 2004-09-08 04:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-07 12:24 pm (UTC)I definitely think/see that "bad stuff" can have effects on different planes. You are what you "eat" they say.